Finding the Diamond

I am free, free to explore everything about me, everything about everything.  But I am still experiencing this residual sadness that I feel so much of the time.  I found that when I ventured outside my little cottage on an errand of some sort, that I would become overwhelmed with this feeling of sadness.  I was so sad, that I would be sobbing as I drove my car to my destination.

One day when this happened again, for the billionth time, I just got mad.  And I got mad at God.  And I just started screaming at Him, screaming all sorts of things to Him.  And He spoke to me.  He heard me and responded.